好難受

 可唔可以諗下我嘅感受

真係好難受

就嚟屈到病

i need to vent i need to vent i need to vent

why me? why every single consequence is on me?

i don't cooporate - gives you every right to hurt me without feeling guilty, in fact, its MY FAULT because i didn't cooporate

fine, i cooporate - when there is consequence of it, it on me again

remediation? ALSO done on me

why do i need to suffer for EVERY SINGLE ACTION that YOU take?

WHAT DID YOU PAY FOR ALL THESE?

I GET NOTHING AND I AM PAYING THE PRICE

why do i even bother to continue

選擇

剛剛朋友仔update咗我佢嘅近況

竟然係同病相連！感受特別深因為自己正在經歷，亦未算完全接受到。

分別係，對方確認咗，成為事實。

大家嘅選擇唔同

我唔知道大家嘅選擇有無錯，但係揀咗就要繼續向呢個方向走

終於講咗自己嘅情況出嚟，其實鬆咗好多，多謝你。真心的。

佩服朋友仔嘅勇氣，加油！

我都要堅強加油。。。

好辛苦

犯太歲嘅一年好辛苦

好

辛

苦

無人可以傾訴
就嚟發癲

喺咪尊重就要比人蝦
喺咪重視就要被迫接受

幾時先會好？

反思

比起以前的工作，這份新的工作很people oriented，很少私人時間。1年了，總算開始站穩陣腳。開始聽得懂這裡的事情，但實在還有太多要學。自問是一本open book，甚麼事也放在面上。。。其實也有質疑自己是否適合這位置。人大了反而會想更多，朋友？同事？到底應如何對待每天在公司也見面的人？繼續做我的傻大姐還是要戴上面具去生存？我明白這不是別人可以告訴我的，但我還未有能力獨自去處理。。。




家裡也有變化，嫲嫲不再過來了，因為已有第二位姐姐。對我來說是解脫。真的，是不孝也只能承認，她給我的壓力遠遠大於工作，只因影響到的是我的兩位親孩子。但也很感謝她給我的經驗，鍛鍊我的EQ（雖然還是不合格），我相信我是有進步的。




孩子每一天一天的長大，看到他們每天也有新的進步，有自己的思想，很感動。mei仔也不再bb，是小女孩一名！要放在家庭上的心思和力氣只會越來越多，我一定要裝備好自己才可以跟孩子們走下去。

RIP Uncle John

I don't know who to speak to so I am coming back here again

Its been 2 days and I am still not able to believe this has happened... Of all people why him? 

Reminded me of Uncle Charles... Now that I am older I feel it much more deeply. 

He was such a great, fun, and close family friend of ours. 

I hope their family can stay strong and get through this. I wish there is more I can do about it... We will miss you Uncle John, always. 

不捨

明天獨自飛加拿大

捨不得兩隻小魔怪是當然的

最感觸的是今天達哥整天黏著我，又i love you的(平日他只會纏住爸爸不理我)。。。原來3歲半的他已知道甚麼是不捨。 

媽媽很快回來，會facetime的，要乖喔！

小孩趣事2

This afternoon.....

達哥: how come meimei doesn't go afternoon nap?

Helper: because meimei will go to clinic and get a needle...

達哥: why needle?

Helper: because meimei is naughty!

達哥: Grandma...... We go take nap now (ran to his room)

😂😂😂😂😂😂

And....

mei仔did not cry one bit (actually no reaction at all) while getting her shot 😱 does she have no feelings or what?!

小孩趣事

昨晚我買了糖水回家，見達哥也很乖，分了一點給他。他吃完後還再舔著匙羹我們也沒理他，怎料他突然拿起匙羹說:媽媽！不用洗啦！ 哈哈，傻小孩把匙羹舔得乾乾淨淨啦！

今朝婆婆在家同Mei Mei 玩，抱著她唱歌，搖下搖下。見她手上仍有本書仔，似看著但不動。。。再👀下，完來瞓左，哈哈！(只是起床後兩小時內的事呀！) 工人姐姐回來開門，她又跳起身玩

超級缺乏足夠睡眠呀！！然後轉頭又再睡了！完全是個派對動物！！

終於

希望這次是真的、終極的解脫

事源係星期四我早咗少少返屋企，入屋達哥同嫲嫲已經沖緊涼，我媽喺廳。咁我過我媽度飲湯。飲完返去廁所好噪，我地入去就聽到個仔發脾4話我好嬲你呀！跟住嫲嫲話我夠好嬲你囉！然後嫲嫲開門出嚟成身濕哂，個仔仲喺拎住花灑沖住水。嫲嫲行開咗我入去搞個仔，哦到佢暈，點可以用花灑射人！ 搞掂出去嫲嫲走咗

之後食完飯工人話應該唔係第一次，佢話嫲嫲成日唔當場改正個仔，呢d嘢唔鬧都一定要即時同佢講下次唔可以。

跟住第二晚我食完飯過我媽度飲湯，返返屋企余生就話嫲嫲話以後唔湊個仔

余生呢兩日成日鬧仔話佢曳嫲嫲唔理佢。我都忍唔住話其實嫲嫲有份令到呢件事發生囉。

三年，足足忍咗三年終於守得雲開。而家要舖定後路堵截某人反口吃回頭草。

OMG OMG OMG

Omg my cholestrol dropped from 6.2 to 4.8 in 6 mths!

Omg mei can walk on her own, 10+ steps!!

Omg cy finally prefers me over others on certain things! 

Last Day

It was a really busy 3 weeks since I've resigned...

It started with, a phone call for job offer on my birthday - during my birthday lunch with special K and her mom! Such a special moment to share with the special people in my life :)

LASIK surgery was a life changing experience, both the surgery itself, and how you feel afterwards.

Non stop clearing breaks daily wiht handicapped eyesight in the first week

The farewells and lunches, setting up connections.

Cleaning up of documents, mails, backups...

now to the last day, 6 years to an end. The longest job I've ever had. I really like it here, hope the next place will be even better :)

the first ever family trip before the new job...

Good luck to myself!

Shopping again!!

Found Etsy couple weeks ago.... but shipping is expensive...


HOWEVER, after 2 days of walking around the town and FAILING to find the shop....


I decided to buy anyways~ lucky the shop is doing 20% off just now, and buying a couple more to even out the shipping, turns out to be just $29 per piece including shipping :)

love her stuff: https://www.etsy.com/hk-en/shop/JigulinsHA