suprise

this morning same old la.... check ha email read ha news.... pretend ha doing some work gum.... haaa...... but a little suprise came... tiff came over to my cubicle and wanted to talk...... there are some problems between her and paul and she wasn't sure what to do..... its so hard as a 3rd person to tell her what to do.... especially i don't know them too too too well.... but i guess all she wanted was some support and a channel to let things out...... but after a while gary came to check out how i'm doing ... so she left heee... sorries tiff~ hopefully she can straighten things out with paul la~

she mentioned about the problem with ppl being "fake" or "real" too..... reminds me of what va and i talked about a while ago in her house...... fake as in not opening up to others? real as in say whatever's in your mind and don't care about other people's feeling? i think both are not good..... i know people see me as more of "fake" than "real"... but i can't force myself to disregard other people's feeling just because i want to say something.... its just not right, i mean, i'd feel so bad afterwards..... i know i do that sometimes too and when i realized what i've done... the feeling is horrible..... and its so hard to say sorry too afterwards.... i'd rather say things the nice way as long as i can get the message across..... i mean, friends for 10 years ng argue doesn't mean we're not good friends.. there's no guideline/law/regulation that says best friends must aruge gwa?! i say what i feel too... just not as blunt as other people je.... is that a bad quality too?? i do admit i hide myself, but that's because of lack of security, not this...... i mean, even on this diary i don't reveal everything la..... sigh~ i duno...............

well i was trying to be more aggressive? duno what word to use..... anyways i went to ask gary for work la.... but everytime i do it i feel bad cos i know he's finding work for me to do, not like there is stuff lying there that he needs help with... so in a sense when i ask, i'm creating work for him... hmmm.... so he came over after a bit and gave me a photocopying job to do..... i honestly don't mind but i know he had a hard time finding stuff for me to do lor......... when are the projects starting le.... hmmmmmm....


ended up emailing with scottie most of the morning..... gmail used as instant messaging... =P
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went to the gym after work..... me really out of shape hahaa... run of 30mins already ho tired.... =P left there at 6 la, and 401 was jammed all da way from yonge to pass 427.. !!! took over 1 hour to get home... and then when both dad and i were thinking we need to make food tonight..... mom was home..... as in didn't go out dancing..... which was good..... cos i was hungry hahaaa..... after that msn-ed a bit until sam came.... we just talked and talked and talked.... all those high school memories! she forgot to take the coconut head home tho...... maybe i'll see her again before she leaves ge.... =) scottie's flying back tonight la...... stayed up till 1 something... aiyaa~ i'll be late tomorrow.......