not exactly an uplifting evening

(a little recap of the day..... morning found out no school from henry's email jau went back to sleep.... had lunch with viv and stpeh as planned.. but changed place cos of the weather.... but it was still good, viv is still the same from first year... we had a nice chat..... then afternoon was spent doing more job apps..... found a couple ok ones to apply...... then spent a couple hours chatting with steph and va in da kitchen again.. and it was then my cell rang..... my mom called.... )

a phone conversation w/mom in the afternoon....

mom: are u coming home tmr
me: yes
mom: when?
me: 12 gwa...
mom: are u going out after?
me: yes
mom: when?
me: er... 3? 4? i duno...
mom: er... umm.. eh....
me: so what do u want to know.. ?
mom: mo.. thinking to invite ppl over to play mj..
me: sure thing... i'm not going to disturb u anyways
mom: but are u going out for sure
me: so should i just not come home?
mom: ho a ho a!!
me: ......
- conclusion, i'm not wanted..... i don't even know what's the big deal of me in the 2nd floor when she and her friends play in the basement.. i wonder if she's kicking dad out too.. poor dad.. at least i have another home in waterloo....

evening is always website time because that's when scottie works on it... and he talks about it... so.... i get pulled away from my work.. maybe i should schedule my stuff better so i do other stuff during the day to fit his schedule? ><~~ i honestly believe i'm the busier one here..... can't he let me go... at least 1 or 2 days a week.... ? i seriously have assignments due that i duno if i can finish or not......

drama... ears hurt from headphone.... i thought the point of someone organizing the comments is that i get no contradicting stuff to work with... guess not... so what's the point of having this extra layer?! + the christy email... ng ji ho nau ding ho siu...... what an interesting person.. i mean.. um.. the exec..... i'm soo soo glad my kids are actually being so supportive and nice to me.... they come to me for work before i go crazy.... if they were all christys.... i think i would've given up by now.... people say me lor fu lai sun.... i duno... i duno if it was wrong to do this or not anymore..... i used to think i'll regret if i don't... but.. i'm starting to think am i regretting already.... ? is there not even 1% of my decision correct... ? why am i under stress and ppl i care about just say i'm stupid and useless rather than being supportive.... ?

jobs... msn talks.... all frustrations....

another night up till 430

maybe i'm complaining too much.... maybe its too late at night.... i just want to let things out