15/16... i'm not talking about the game show.. i'm talking about how i'm feeling right now...... this morning yau good news, well, expected good news..... but the details of it turned it into a bad news...... i feel panic, insecureness, disappointment, (-1000 descriptions)..... why? why? why? i thought having an offer should be something that's worth celebrating and be happy and joyful about....... ? i feel like crying.... ho chi this is the end of my life gum..... i panic i start applying more jobs through jobmine and workopolis..... i can't concentrate on 492 anymore even though i got approval from prof on my topic...... i keep thinking about what i can do, what i should do, what i want to do, and if i do those things will they affect the results..... i feel so helpless cos its my future and not anyone else's, i don't know what to do with it, and no one else can really help me decide because.. its MY future, any moves i take now i have to bare the consequences, whether it be good or bad.... this has been the most difficult thing i've faced since birth, i'm so afraid to do the wrong thing or make the wrong choice now, who can help me... ?
growing up is no fun at all
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