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this morning, wake up jau received the email... jau hai "hei mong yuet dai, sat mong yuet dai" lor... i thought this is coming to an end... but i guess i was wrong.... this is going to be a long long battle and i'm no where close to the end..... but i did tried my best already... and i did have confidence not like before.... i don't know what else is missing....

spent the whole day learning tomcat/apache/jdk/xml/db/jdbc/etc.... tried hard not to think anymore.... i don't want to bring up any more hopes cos they'll just go away in the end... what's the point of thinking when i can't control the results anyways.....

stop saying it'll end soon stop saying enjoy it while you can stop saying i wish i can be you.... that's all bullshit.... you're not me you didn't go through the same thing you don't know what i'm feeling now....

i think i'll give up accenture tmr