alson

1st time in my life, someone i know committed suicide... you hear about these things all the time on the news, you read about it, but you never think deeply how much impact it is until it is someone you know, a person you've spoken to, had lunch with, spend hours together everyday, solve problems together, laugh and talk and share life stories with..... just all of a sudden, gone.

i couldn't believe it at first, when i got the email from his girlfriend... i searched and searched for news article hoping i wouldn't find one. and then a coworker sent me a link.... i couldn't help but cry it out in the office. miss k was very nice she came in to chat with me, i did feel a lot better after. couldn't focus on anything at all the whole day, cannot stop thinking about it... why? why did he do this to himself? why? its not worth it!!!

then came the full story from his girlfriend... yes, the newspaper wasn't very nice, they made it sound like he was at fault, but everyone who knows him knows that it is not true! i can't stop myself from crying even after 2 days, its just so hard to believe.... he was such a bright and cheerful guy, so young, with a good family and a sweet girlfriend, all the best things in life, how could he have done it? he was way too silly to think of how others would see him, there's nothing to worry about, its not even true...

i will always remember our lunch date at spaghetti house - you and m always order the same plate, he always give u the shrimps from his salad, and he always take my share of the garlic bread. i'll always remember how you come over to my desk on fridays after your meeting, to chat and kill time till your girlfriend gets off work... i'll never forget all the times we spent together in the office trying to solve client issues together...

alson, i really hope you hear all the things that we are all saying to you now, hope you feel peaceful in your new life, in our hearts, you are always the nice, bright, cheerful, and talented alson we love. i hope you give stregth to your girlfriend and your family. we'll miss you always....